Hai! Mat malem korang! So malam ni aku rajin sikit sbb tak boleh tidur aku nak bebel lah apa yg patut. Act kadang kadang (mostly) i mmg jenis susah tidur mcm harini tak boleh tidur esok boleh tidur. Sometime smpi stress sbb nak paksa tidur. Ok firstly i'm soooooo sorry sbb menghilang gitchoo hahah terlalu layan sangat sifat malas dlm masa yg sama nak share juga product yg best. Doakan i rajin nak tulis feedback on product yg berkesan kat i ok. So tonight i bebel pasal group work. Selama nearly 2 and a half year bergelar student, individual assignment will be my first choice. I don't prefer, don't like kalau boleh nak group assignment ni tak wujud.
One thing is I jenis nak kejar guru/ cari pengajar pegi cari sendiri masuk bilik lect untuk tanya apa yg i tak faham tentang semua yg i tak faham lah kan how to do assignment/ lect ajar tak clear tapi malu nak tanya dlm kelas. OK THAT'S ME. I will keep ghosting them smpi lah aku faham. Unless i'm able to find the answer in google or notes/slides. But since apa yg i tak faham itu adalah somethin berkaitan my group assignment i don't think lect assume their student to come alone kan (seems weird) plus some of my lect alr state to come by group for consultation. So group pun krik krik, tup tup "ok kita divide tugas"??????? I definitely cannot brain.
I baca balik study apa tuh org pnggil? Yg lect bagi kita kena buat apa throughout the semester tu. Then i cari guideline assignment then bila i tak faham i only can find the answer myself bcs it is not proper to ask lect abt assignment when its last minute right? Or is it normal? Like i je yg penakut? If it is an individual assignment i don't have reasons to be nervous or scared bcs my work won't affect others salah ke betul ke apa yg i buat will not make my friends' mark decrease or increase. I nak buat last minute ke I tak faham ke it's up to me. I malas ke no effort ke the mark only affect my result.
So its a big no for me to further my study (degree) or untuk kerja dalam organisasi. Which i alr recognise myself i know myself. I know office hour doesn't suit me. I ok if i be given a grouping task ONLY IF i have a good leader. Yup. Thats the word. A leader, a good leader like "ok lets meet and discuss regarding our task" "ok ziqa can u help to handle the customer service if our cusomer need help so they come to you" "ok any question please ask now or via whatsapp". Ok i know otak i lembap sikit that anybody must tell me one by one without miss any information.
Pernah my lect become so annoyed at me bcs she literally tired (maybe) explain one by one. Me: sorry honey i'm sorry for my stupidity but its ur job to teach your student hahahaha. Thats why in class i senyap (pendiam) bcs i use 100% my both ears to listen and hadam each every words yg keluar from mulut lect i. I lebih rela overcome my sifat pemalu to work alone (bergerak solo) than to work in an organisation (kerja office lah kiranya).
I lebih rela jadi reviewer, tour guide, a volunteer, actress, personal shopper and yg sewaktu dengannya than to work with group then group mate not commited and so on. Even gaji or payment based on ourselves mcm reviewer semua tulah. One thing is Alhamdulillah i never care abt gaji. I tak kisah sehari RM50 atau apa lah. Janji i love my job, then my superior recognise my passion and naikkan gaji or else. But i think logic jugalah if my friend RM1,200 then i supposed to get at least the same amount lah if almost same jobscope or hour in a day.
If 10am to 10pm but the job is just sit and eat then fikirlah which one is better for you ok. Always know and understand yourself. Jangan brag in social media "no one understand me" you are responsible for yourself ok honey. So yeah, please doakan I dapat a job that i really like, love, adore. Because it is very crucial in order to have a happy, peacefully life <3
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